Just try and keep me down..

Donna

This has been a rough week emotionally for me.  I had 2 sick kids with the stomach bug and then I got hit with the bug myself.  I’m still not feeling 100% so my entire diet and exercise schedule has been shaken up a bit.  I don’t believe I have lost any weight this week, but I’m not worrying about the numbers so much due to the circumstances.  I wanted to share with you something else that happened to me which really altered my emotional state.  I’ve been so focused and driven with my journey to a healthier lifestyle that I may have neglected one area of my life.  I was forced to take off all the different hats that I wear and reevaluate my priorities.  It was brought to my attention that I was deficient with certain reports at work.  This really hit me hard because I take great pride in my job.  I truly had no idea that upper management had an issue with how I was handling things.  I am a supervisor for the IT division at a law enforcement agency.  As many supervisors know, this is a hard position to juggle.  I am in the field and deal closely with commissioned personnel as well as my team of field technicians.  Upper management sits in an office 200 miles away not truly knowing what we do in the field.  They base their knowledge of our work off of statistics, reports and numbers.  I was notified via email that I have become delinquent in certain areas and I think it hit me so hard because the person who delivered this information to me did it in a very impersonal way.  I thought my relationship was more valuable with them and would’ve appreciated a phone call as opposed to a late night email.  This communication really took the wind out of my sails.  I had no idea that my work was being perceived as delinquent and/or deficient.  As I mentioned, I laid everything on the table and really tried to look at the big picture.  Naturally if I am not meeting certain criteria as a supervisor, then I have to re-shift my focus at work and cater to upper management.  As a supervisor though, you’re only as good as the team underneath you, so this will be a challenge to balance both the needs of upper management and maintain a strong team that considers me relatable, approachable and available.  As with any challenge, I am motivated to make this happen.  I will make this happen!!  My family is everything to me.  They are what drives me.  I will not allow this set back at work to throw me off my game.  I am better than that.  Here’s to a better week with no work drama and no stomach bugs!