Goals:The Difficult Ones!

 

Chanon

 We are each as unique as a flower. This one is so precious. 

We all have that one area of our life that seems to come so naturally to us.  The area in which our gifts are so prevalent.  One of these areas for me is the gift of encouragement. It seems to come so easy for me to talk someone up, to encourage them, to celebrate them.   But what happens when our gift seems broken?  When we can encourage everyone around us and yet can't seem to encourage ourselves?  
For me, I never really had this issue of self doubt or lack of self encouragement.  That is until I decided once and for all that I am going to make my health a priority. I am going to be " Fit by Forty", "reduce all my numbers", "win this fight."   For some reason this area, this area is the opposite of my gift. It's just not a natural thing that I love.  It's not easy to self encourage or self motivate.   
Quite frankly I've needed others to push me, pull me, encourage me and make me remember why this is so important.  I haven't found that inner beast yet... The one that looks in the mirror and says oh yes I love this journey.   I have not given up hope on it... I know somewhere deep in there she lives.  I have resolved to this decision- until the inner beast appears, I will decide daily to make these choices.  You see some people just have this natural gift to be fit, live fit, speak fit, embrace fit.  Others like me have to fight to decide to want it bad enough to decide to live it.   I am on day 8 toward that 21 days to make a habit of exercising.   I have drug my but to the gym and gave my heart a work out 3 times this week.  I have met a goal and started on a journey to create this habit.   I have longed to be the gal whose gift is fitness,  but have realized my gifts are exactly as they should be.    We all have days that ours feel broken, we all have days to throw ourselves a pity party, and we all have days that this journey is strictly about a decision and not about our inner beast. What is important is that after those days... We pick ourselves up, look in the mirror and decide to see the inner beast even if she doesn't come naturally.
Never give up and never let a bad day or a bad meal define your journey.   

My Beautiful Daughter at her 5th Grade Graduation

Grace for the days when it's just not easy.  Be Well!

• Chanon