Turning Roadblocks into Dust (Libby)



Libby 

Height 5'1.5"
Weight 147 lbs
Goal 127 lbs
Fitness Goals: Run a half marathon
Keep the weight off
Stay consistent
Improve my run time
Food Goals: Log all food





I have been 20 lbs overweight since my childhood.  I struggle gaining and losing these 20lbs. now and have in the past.  During my 20's I was at an ideal weight, very fit, and loved the skin I was in.  It is not my fluffy snuggle belly that necessarily bothers me or the fact that I can't run around in my daisy dukes anymore.  I think the 20lbs continue to gnaw at me because it is the one mountain I have not conquered.  I have accomplished so many things in my life that I am proud of, they were hard, some very hard, but I DID it. The goals that I reached in my life were not any less daunting but I could picture the end result; getting that degree, making rank, getting my family healthy.  

I often wonder when I read fitness and weight loss success stories, when did these men and women stop accepting defeat and MOVE towards their goal and did NOT stop until they reached it.  I no longer want to stop, I no longer accept defeat, I no longer allow myself to accept false justification for bad behavior.  It.Is.Time.  The lie I like to believe is that I am not strong enough to remove the roadblocks that keep me from my best self, my best Libby...I choose to crash through them, turn them into dust. Throughout the next 90 days I plan to share the moments I celebrate, cry, laugh, and experience as I make a life change that has eluded me for far too long. 

I bought a visual to hang in my room and remind myself of my weight loss goals.  When I showed my family my visual reminder their jaws hit the floor, they could not hide their surprise.  There may have even been a chuckle or two; mainly because they have not seen me in one of these for about 11 years.  I got a two-piece bathing suit.  I vow to you and my family that I WILL get into it by the end of this summer, confidently. 

This is a very generous tankini; All of my suits look like this.

This is the goal two-piece suit. Notice it is NOT strappy in any way.  It is also very modest and comes up to my belly button. You would have thought I bought a thong or one of those scrunchy butt  bikinis with some of the reactions...LOL!

I will leave you with this, until next Monday, I tried the suit on for a bottom line (no pun intended).  Lets just say...I need to be SUPER DUPER dedicated. There was a lot of pushing in and popping out, some bulging here and there going on, it wasn't pretty.

Goals this week: Run my half marathon training schedule

Log all of my food

Start the INSANITY program

Wish me Luck.

Libby