Denise
“You're going the wrong way”~Planes, Trains and
Automobiles..
I love that movie, Planes, Trains
and Automobiles, it's one of my all time favorites and my very favorite part of
the movie is when Steve Martin and John Candy were driving down the highway on
the wrong side and the couple in the other car were yelling out to them “you're
going the wrong way”. It's a scene I think of often and it makes me laugh every
time. Today I told myself out of know where, “you're going the wrong way”, it
instantly made me laugh and I had to shake my head, I am going to wrong way. What
I've been going through in the last two weeks is no laughing matter which is a
Lymes disease relapse. It came on slow and then wham, slammed me to the ground.
I was down for two solid days barely able to move except to move a fork to my
mouth of everything comfort food. I was fatigued beyond what I could handle and
in pain from head to toe. I'd been feeling the fatigued coming and the pain but
had not experience the crushing blow so quickly with a relapse before. I was
diagnosed with Lymes disease over four years ago. After months of pain and not
being able to function normally the blood work finally came back with an
answer. Desperate for relief I tried seven weeks of traditional antibiotics and
felt even worse than I had been before,
so I turned back to my holistic way of
dealing with ailments. Within 8 months I was feeling almost back to normal and
have been hyper diligent to keep my chronic Lymes under control. This last nine
weeks has brought on a lot of stress! Stress kills! I believe that with all my
heart but, that didn't stop me from letting it consume me. Stress is also a key
factor in getting a relapse. As soon as I started feeling it coming I started
on my regiment but keeping to my healthier way of eating went out the window at
the same time. I was so tired, my brain would not work properly, pain took over
and here came the carbs including sugar. My holistic tinctures and herbs
started kicking in on Saturday and I could finally think straight, my
chiropractor worked wonders and I started coming back to life as I knew it but
the dread of possibly being at least 10 lbs heavier was not a happy thought. So
here I am with this mess trying to organize it all and putting everything back into its
place. A good thing that came out if it is that I'm making a strong effort to
ease up and find humor instead of stress. I'm looking through a new pair of
eyes at the blessings instead of the stress. I was overwhelmed at the huge
undertaking of our yard renovation and going way over budget but the blessing
is that we have a absolutely gorgeous yard after 9 weeks of very hard work and
saved probably $40,000 dollars in labor not to mention family and friends
coming through in an amazing way. I was holding
in stress about being able to pull together a wedding in our yard for my son
and future DIL with all the mess of renovations in front of us but the reality
of it is that our son is getting married and, getting married to someone that
we adore and it is all a precious blessing to be celebrated.
And, if that's not
enough, we added refinancing our home to the mix…getting a lower interest
rate…blessing. Then I was forced to see the blessing of eating like there was
no tomorrow and feeling like I ruined the journey that I worked so hard for,
those blessings are in what I've learned and what I take away from this when I
hit these road blocks in the future. Also, that finding the humor in things is
a happy place that can replace a lot of undo stress. “You're going the wrong
way”…it doesn't have to be negative when you see the lessons learned in it.
As I get back on track I am
thankful for second chances. What I'm seeing in front of me is good times with
family and friends, feeling healthy, managing stress for a more positive
outlook, eating well to be well, seeing my son getting married, enjoying my
precious grandchildren, never taking family and friends for granted and being
ok if on rare occasions “you're going the wrong way” is a short stint in my
crazy life.
As for my weight: 196.4, up 2
lbs but it could have been oh so worse!!!!
For health reasons I am
starting a cleanse on October 17th for 10 days. Being and feeling
healthy is of the utmost importance to me and everything that follows should
fall into place. I leave these last few weeks of ill health and bad choices
behind and look forward to what these next few weeks and beyond have to hold.
Tiger update: Kevin joined me
in this weight loss journey on May 1st, one week after I started. He
has not swayed once, not even a tiny bit, from his high protein and greens diet
and eating small healthy portions. In addition, he's got a great workout in our
back yard helping with the renovations with my dad and son for the last nine
weeks. This all has added up to him losing over fifty lbs. so far and 7 lbs.
away from his goal weight. He's dropped two pant sizes and looks great. I have
to admit that I like adding his success since mine is not so impressive. Lol
Peace and joy,
Panda
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