Fear.

Maggie

Height: 5'8"
Weight: 150
Goals: To build muscle, do the perfect handstand, compete in my first Crossfit competition, and start a Fit Mom support group.
Motivation/support:  My husband, kids,coaches and friends.

Fear

Once you have been overweight you have that constant fear that you will gain it all back.  I know this feeling very well.  10 years ago I was 70 pounds overweight.  I gave myself a year to lose all the weight.  I did it and it was a tough.  I remember talking to myself at night and saying that "No you shouldn't go down stairs and make a batch of cookies".  In the past I was a secret eater.  I would get so excited when I was alone and I could eat.  I would fantasize about all the yummy food that I would consume.  My weakness was brownie mix.  I would consume a whole box of brownie mix.  When I think about it now it makes me feel horrible and sad.  How could I allow myself to eat that way?   Why did I do it?   I realized it was because it was the only thing I had control of.  Well that changed when I discovered how exercising can be fun.  I started taking dance classes and loved them all.  I started to notice the changes in my body.  I liked what I saw.  This was my new control.  I could now be in control of my body and health.  I didn't want to ruin what I achieved by eating all the wrong foods. I worked hard during that workout and I'm not going to waste it on brownies.   I realized that I am in control and I loved it.

Today my family I all eat healthy and exercise.  I feel pride in that fact.  I never want my children to be secret eaters because it a very sad and lonely way to live.

I still do struggle with food addictions . I have my moments and I have to remind my self that I have come along way.  I have that fear that I will gain it all back and I am ok with having that fear.  It's the fear that keeps me on the right path for myself and my family.