PANDA LOG 06.09.2016
HEIGHT:: 5’8”
STARTING Weight on 4-25-16 : 208
TODAY’S Weight: Not getting on that evil thing until 7-25-16
GOALS: Fit comfy into any size
12, no muffin top and with a tight shirt!
Establish playtime on a daily basis that helps me achieve a strong
body. Break old habits!
MOTIVATION and SUPPORT: My
husband, my family, my friends and my Lord.
--I was going to start my blog
on a negative note or at least with negative thoughts. I'm going to start with
a list of positives and see where this goes.
--I've been eating
a clean healthy diet of organic foods since April 25th, with a couple of slip ups of my power bars
with grass fed butter being one and sharing a small fry with my soon to be
daughter-in-law from Five Guys being another. I guess I have to include
indulging in wine everyday too, but I am trying an experiment, no wine for a
week, and see if it makes a difference in how my clothes fit. But, that is a
lot of days of eating a whole food diet and I'm really proud of myself for not
including any bakery indulgences or sugars besides from fruit. Yay for not over
eating and keeping it clean and wholesome. #thegoodthings
--Every morning since May 18th, besides two rest days, I have made the choice to workout. I see results, I feel stronger and I am feeling a little more confident.
--I started adding cardio to my routine on 6-6.
--I'm healthy, active and alive!!
Ok, that helped. Here is how
I was feeling. As soon as I start making a difference in the appearance of my
body and start feeling more confident, I start picking my appearance apart. I
get so much harder on myself and start thinking that Im doing all this to make
such a tiny difference, is it worth it? Why aren't my clothes looser? Why do I
still have that dreaded inherited cellulite on the inside of my legs? Why is my
husband losing three times more than me in a shorter amount of time. What's
wrong with my system? Why do I hate running? That last one is because I am
surrounded by runners and it seems so social and fun, but I hate it with every
fiber of my being. Why, why why? I didn't realize I was allowing myself to
think like this until I started my blog today. So I digress, back to the real
deal here!! I'm making daily choices to get to a goal that won't happen over
night. Patience is not my strong point, nor is hitting the accelerator to reach
100 and sticking to it. Slow and steady is the way I need to play this, it's
the only way I will end up with all these positive changes being a part of my lifestyle
instead of just another fad something or another. Baby steps is my pace and I
know it. Even though I know this I still have to talk myself off the ledge
about looking into a diet pill or starting some extreme program. I've been
there, done that. I'm 48 years old and know that this journey has to be a daily
deal with realistic changes that will last the rest of my life.
Just a little about my past
dieting experience to give a picture of why this approach is the only approach
that will work for me. At a fat age 13 I decided to start exercising and
dieting. I ate a fish fillet and a small fry or a tuna sandwich and a glass of
milk everyday after school and that is all I ate for a couple of months. I was
starving all the time but seeing great results. I started riding my bike to a
boys house that I liked, he lived a few miles away and up hills! My body went
from fat to lean over a summer. I maintained a thin frame, sometimes not the
most healthy way, until I was 29. I started gaining weight and feeling very
tired all the sudden. I ended up in emergency surgery for a hysterectomy at age
32. By the time I had the surgery, I'd gained 70 lbs! I found out I had the
beginning stage of cervical cancer and other issues that were thankfully all
taken care of with surgery, less some parts of my body that I didn't need
anyway. At age 34 I'd moved 3000 miles away from home, still huge and facing
all new challenges. A couple years after we moved, I lost weight with the
extreme Atkins diet, I lost over 40 lbs., but it was not sustainable or fun! I
gained back 30 of the 40 lbs. and decided I needed to go extreme again. Four
years ago I took Bee Pollen weight loss pills and lost the 30 lbs I gained. The
pills made me less hungry but I was jittery. Because of choices I'd made when
younger, jittery and addicted were not things I wanted in my life. It was hard
getting off the pills and of coarse I gained the 30 lbs back. So here I am now
and refuse to do anything drastic. I'm left with no other choice at this point
than to force myself to have patients with this journey and make good solid
choices every day.
I've got to share one of my
new favorite recipes this week, cauliflower Alfredo. I put it over spiraled
zucchini and it hit a “comfy food” spot like know bodies business.
Peace,
Panda
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