I AM WORTH IT!

 Amy

       CURRENT WEIGHT: 230 LBS

I'm not quite sure what is wrong with me? Why can't I get it together?  Do I want to be fat the rest of my life? I'm to the point that I need to dig deeper and really figure out why am I like this. Do I not feel like I deserve better? I do care what I look like and I don't want to be like this anymore  but I also can't seem to get it together and change things. This is why I continually fail. Because I get discouraged and then I just quit. I really want to make this work and keep trying but to do that I need to stop sabotaging myself. I'd say I always fail because I'm lazy but I really do think it's something deeper then that. I look back at the picture of me and my husband from when we first started dating and I can't believe how different Iook. When I look at that photo the biggest thing I think is I actually thought I was fat then. Man what I wouldn't give to be that weight now. 

This week I would say has been my worst week yet. I have slipped back into not eating breakfast in the morning and eating some not so good things. I haven't completely fallen off the wagon but I'm heading in that direction.  I need to decide here and now am I going to give up like I always do or am I going to finally decide that I am worth it and keep going. I know I am worth it I just need to keep telling myself that and just keep trying. I know we all struggle but it just seems like I am struggling more then everyone else. I guess what I am saying is that I need regroup and just take it one day at a time because I don't want to quit on myself. 

I AM WORTH IT!