Patience!!

Denise

HEIGHT:: 5’8”

STARTING Weight on 4-25-16 : 208

TODAY’S Weight: not getting on that evil scale until 7-25-16

GOALS:  Fit comfy into any size 12, no muffin top and with a tight shirt!

Establish playtime on a daily basis that helps me achieve a strong body. Break old habits!

MOTIVATION and SUPPORT:  My husband, my family, my friends and my Lord.

PANDA LOG 06.23.2016

I'm a Libra and my scales tip easily! I can go from one extreme to another or be completely even keel and I can feel chilled and hyper at the same time. There probably is not a moment that I'm sitting and “relaxing” that my leg is not moving or some part of me is not tapping. This all gets exaggerated when I'm anxious or excited. I've been anxious and excited for a few days now waiting for my grandson to make up his mind to enter into this world! I took a week off to get things done around my house and help out with my 5 year old grandson when Lennon arrives and here I go back to work tomorrow and he's not even showing any interest in exiting his momma’s belly. The stress of being in the middle of my mail route in the next couple of days and getting the call is overwhelming me. On top of that anxious feeling, my mom will be going in for surgery on Friday. Being 3000 miles away is actually giving me a panicky feeling. It's a feeling of being hyper and paralyzed all in one.

On the food side of all these tense feelings I've done well. On the fifth day of my stay-cation I ate whatever I wanted and just didn't care. I'd gotten tons done around the house and still had three days left to be home and for Lennon to come so I was feeling chill that day. Come day six, seven and today I'm feeling the crunch and it's not pretty, but I didn't continue my binge eating after the “day five cheat”. I'm finally feeling like all of these changes I've been making along the way in the last nine weeks are habit now and part of my new life style. When I started this journey my biggest problem was emotional eating and after making choices to change that day after day it's now manageable, that's huge! I look at how I'm feeling at this moment and, nine weeks ago if I felt like this I'd be heading for the carb highway full speed and not looking back. Instead I will take this last vacation day and head out to do something enjoyable and productive and pray that I get a call that Lennon has decided to come. I pray for a safe delivery for my daughter and Lennon and a safe surgery for my mom on Friday. Thanking the Lord for all his blessings!!!

I'll end with a progress report: I now fit into my size 12 Gap jeans! I have a pair of Kut from the Kloth size 12 jeans in my closet, they are my favorite pair of jeans, the last time I tried them on before I started this journey I could not get them past my bum. I can now zip and button them, not zip, button and wear them in public, but it's progress!!! My husband has lost 20 lbs. and down a pant size!!! He looks great and I'm am so glad that he decided to join me on this life changing journey!!

Peace,

Panda.