Nervous! (Denise)

Panda log: 04.29.2016

Hi.

Well, here it goes. I'm jumping right in. I experienced one whole year of some raw and rough emotions. I'm not going to bore you with the details. I will say, it was tough! Mostly because I've spent a lot of energy throughout my life trying not to feel too many, telling myself that I was stronger that way. What I've learned through my “year of emotions”, and very much feeling every one to their fullest, is that, not letting myself do this in the past has made me weak! I didn't realize, in the midst of it all, the lesson I was learning and how life changing it would be. As I allowed myself to feel and experience every emotion, I started feeling stronger. I'm not sure at which point it happened but,  in my new found vulnerability, I  felt alive in a way I had not experienced  before. I realized that stuffing all my emotions down for all those years was suffocating me, making me weak, and preventing me from living in full truth. You are probably wondering why I'm talking about emotions when this is a blog about weight and health and struggles with them. Well, let me introduce myself. Hi, my name is Denise, and I am an emotional eater.

What I hope to gain by blogging about my struggles:

1.     Separate my emotions from my eating. It will be a daily reminder that I am stronger when I cope with my feelings and not drown them out.

2.   Get strong. I'm no spring chicken and it’s caught up with me! I've heard people say “move it or lose it” but now, it echoes through my head as absolute truth.

3.   Eat healthful. When I'm eating my normal organic diet, I feel good, but need to practice portion control. When I'm stopping at the bakery, just this once, and it turns into three times a week, I feel horrible. Hello acid reflex and hello sweatpants. 

4.   Be kind to myself. Baby steps. And remind myself, on a daily basis, of #thegoodthings.

Peace,

Panda

P.S.  I just have to say, I'm already loving these ladies that I'm blogging with. The encouragement I have received from the last three days of their blogs has been a blessing to me already.