Dear Diary.

Denise

PANDA LOG 10.20.2016

Panda Diary

It's Friday, 10-14. Tomorrow is my birthday and my original plans were to be taken out on the town wearing the new purple wrap dress and tan booties that I bought just for the occasion. First of all, I'm tired! Secondly, my broken toe won't allow me to wear my new boots and thirdly I feel gross! I'm still on my sugar kick and my belly is starting to show it! I'm feeling like if I log daily it might help me be more accountable and get back on track. Today I was driving by the bakery on my mail route and just drove right in. I justified it with tomorrow being my birthday and I deserved a treat. To make it worse, I got more than one treat. I had a salad, sweets and decided to top it off with spaghetti –bolognaise from a cute little Italian restaurant near by. I'm drowning in emotional eating. I'm sabotaging myself in the name of being drained. So, I sit here, hubby is working late, I'm feeling full to the top and am wanting this madness to stop. Tomorrow I will try harder to get a grip on this and head towards the path I had been on, I can't turn back! This “diary” I will be doing leading up to my next blog on Thursday is my desperate attempt get myself back on track.

10.16

Dear diary…lol. Yesterday was my birthday and I DIDN’T eat any sugar! Didn’t eat gluten either but the food made for me by my wonderful, skinny husband was fantastic. I made a choice that I did not want my birthday to revolve around food, I'd spent the previous week in that mode and needed to make it stop, and I did. This morning I woke up feeling lighter, love that feeling!!

Panda diaries-day three, 10-17:

After a nine hour work day, I'm not going to lie, I wanted sugar. The good news is that I scolded may self and didn't give in. I've been home for a hour and a half and am ready for some artichokes, salad and left over smoked ribs that Kev smoked yesterday. Getting over the 2pm sugar hump was a little struggle but it passed quickly. I can't wait until I have a couple of weeks of no sugar/gluten under my belt.

10-18: I'm still dealing with wheat belly, that harness in the middle that you can't suck in. I've stuck with a heathy green and protein diet for four days and can't wait for my belly to catch up. I am going to get on the scale tomorrow. Eek

10-19: 196. Thank God I wasn't back in the 200s, that would have been super disappointing.

After just short of a week I have managed to get myself back on track. I still fill “gluten belly”, if you've never experienced that, it feels like a ball is in the middle of your belly and there's no sucking that ball in! I will end here in anticipation that my wheat belly will be gone by my next blog and also in appreciation that I got back on track instead of giving up.

Peace,

Panda